you know, it makes me feel weird,
when i see some couple holding each other's hands,
kissing while walking in a park.
some might say it calls jealous, but i just don't know.
usually i should happy for them,
but like my deep down side has so many questions.
seriously, do you think everything you see in this time,
will still be with you forever?
no, the answer is no. nothing in this world can live on forever.
i believe that if something can grow up in your heart,
some day it can die too.
today you may love. today you may have everything you want.
but you don't know the future. you don't know at all.
what is tomorrow? what if it's gone? could you stand on it?
not me, not me. actually i can't.
i can't stand here watching things i love fade out and die away.
i don't know but i, i think i'm so sensitive. if i feel love, i'll love so much,
and almost die when it says goodbye to me too.
one song of the eagles says that love will keep us alive,
but what if it's not same as the lyrics?
real life hasn't have to be like what you dream about at all.
who knows? someday the love that used to keep you alive,
it may make you kinda dead too.
dead by your side, dead without anyone near you.
dead with your own tears. cry, cry and cry with yourself,
and then you go to ask your deep down side again,
huh, why did i love?
do you love though you already know,
that in the last it will leave you behind the teardrops?
is that the way love supposed to be?
so many times, i ask myself again and again, love.. for what?
do you really want love if it still hurt your feeling a lot?
the old me said yes, but now.. i say no.
i look at the one i lost and laugh for the way i was.
there's no one to blame accept me and myself. what did i take away?
now, there's nothing i can hold. no real tears to cry.
cause i just can't breath life back into lie.
i'm sad enough, i'm pathetic enough,
and i lost my tears for this shit thing enough.
if love keeps on hurting me, i choose to be alone as always,
instead of having someone comes to my life,
and makes me cry like a child :)
