12/30/2009

little pieces of me.

it's almost morning. just the same boring night.
i hate when i behave in this way, i know how much i'm annoying, sorry.

well it's hard to say something right now.
you know what, like everyday for me goes on by nothing.
i don't know who i live for, what i live for.
like i used to see everything more clearly, but yeah, not now.
i was like aw, what the hell's going on around here?
can anybody help me? can anybody understand what i really am?

i feel like just lost somebody who means to me so much.
jumble. drift. stagnant. discouraged. blah blah.
don't know how to make it better.
um seems like i always be like this when i fall.
nah, weak, right?

so many times, i think that maybe it's better when i'm going away.
run and run as fast as i can to somewhere else.
so weird but yeah. like i don't know anything about myself at all.

so really bored about people who lives life as a dog.
all they can do is just barking and biting everyone if they don't like.
i don't know why did i care, why i have to care.
you know it's really hard to carry on,
when something comes to me over and over again repeatedly,
and like it's harder everytime it comes.
that's too much for me. so sucks, really.

well, i just listened one song and love its meaning.
probably - fool's garden

you don't know, what they will say.
you probably have to do it your own way.
you don't know, what they will see.
absolutely nothing - probably.
you don't know, what they will do.
no one ever knows, you don't know too.
you don't know, what they will say.
you probably don't need another way.


thanks guys, your song makes me feel better and so much happier.
that was right. why do i have to be something am not?
come on nap, whatever they say you don't have to care.
don't let it means to your life anymore. go on, go on. it doesn't matter.